New Year's

New Year's Wishes are a universal tradition.

Every year people will ask what would be changed if we could.

To be honest i wouldn't change a thing.

To be honest I Love Who I Am.

Though i may have my messes inside and out.

Though Happy Times Hurt,

And Sad Times Helps.

I may be getting better but I will never CHANGE who i am.

I have no New Year's Resolution or Things to leave behind.

I'm proud of my demons and angels and i wouldn't ask for more or wish for less.

I'd rather mix the beauty with the mess

I already have them both within me.

They let me know that I’m still alive.

If I had to chose between the way that I am,

And the way everybody else seems to pretend

I wouldn’t think about it for even a second

Between psycho and sanity,

It’s not a question

My favorite parts of myself make the least sense.

All the CRACKS in my SKIN let the LIGHT in.

So there will be no resolution for me.

Because to me My flaws are perfect

And this goes for everyone

All People Are Beautiful.

Lets not be society’s Victims

Lets Just be ourselves.

Letter To My 15 Year Old Self

Dear Me,

We’ve had it tough so far, between losing and winning. I realize you’ve suffered and can't quite figure out why. I assure you better days are ahead even if you're in the dark now.

We were raised by the strongest women we know. She taught us to keep our head up even when we’re pushed down. She may be the source of some of our pain, but she's in pain too. Having what seems like the pressure of the world on our shoulders is tough but we’ll make it through. Remember we have our pack and even though members come and go they will always be there.

You’ll have blessings to come, smiles to share, and even laughs to give. This is not the end; we still have a long way to go. So head up, shoulders back, and no matter what keep hitting back.

Sincerely,

   You

My Life in a Nutshell

Average brown hair and eyes, told she’s beautiful but doesn’t believe it. Faith in the ground beneath her feet not the sky around her. Trying to stay in the here and now but stuck in the past. These are a few things to describe her.
Her life has been hell since the beginning, still she fights on. She’s been close to death since her birth, and multiple times after. There’s not much she can believe in or trust. She's been deceived to many times to try again. These are a few things to describe her.

With nowhere to turn she took to pen and paper, and now her thoughts soar to new heights. The characters flew off the pages of her favorite books. Her art was praised though she knew not why. These are a few things to describe her.
Music lifts her soul and brought her a new power of acceptance. Though she still has far to go, she still learns to be her best self possible. She’s learned to smile through all the pain around her. She grows stronger every day. These are a few things to describe her.

She’s finally learned to love, to believe in, and embrace herself. She still has to fight with the inner turmoil, and pain. Though she can now see a light at the end of her tunnel. Now with her daughter at one side and her partner at the other she knows she can succeed. These are a few things to describe her.

She’s average to most, with all her flaws. To others she’s special, with her many gifts. She learned to be no one else but Nina. This is the last to describe her.